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2010-01-05T23:28:00.000-08:00

im sooooo freakking bored and i wanna kill myself.

aniwaes, i believe its a brand new year to me and all i wanna say is. . .

GOODBYE TO THE PEOPLE I HATE ! and HELLO TO THE PEOPLE I LOVED !

i wanna kill myself. . .ggrrr !

2010-01-05T10:02:00.000-08:00

im starting to feel like im such a useless brag lately. how i wish i could just kill myself. i may seemed to be a very cheerful person infront of everyone. cracking jokes and laughing out loud. but what they dont know is that im deep down being soo lonely and at the same time feel so down and worrying about my family prob. haish.

how i wish all that would end sooner. i know that people say "settle the problems u have step by step" . but how am i supposed to setlle them when they keep on coming in day by day. aiyaaa !

i wanna run away from all this problem lah ! ggggggggrrrrrrrr! how i wish someone wud stand by my side and talk with me regarding my problem. hoping to understand my situation and at the same time guide me through. "klau tak bleh tolong pon takpe! but at least i would appreciate if u just sit and be a listening ear for me". haish.

2010-01-01T00:18:00.000-08:00

WOOTS ! TODAY OFF ! and im going out with my SISTER ! going town later on. gonna catch a movie and go shopping jyeah ! i wanna buy a new belt, shoes and maybe some pants :) since she wanna pay for me. ape salah nye klau mintak lebih . . . hahah

2010-01-01T00:17:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL !

goodbye 2009 ! and HELLO 2010 !

hahah ! im soooo tired ! work like crazy during new year eve. Boss want me to "work for love" . hmmm. . great day aniwaes. haha ! tired. wanna hibernate now. chiows !

2009-12-30T09:49:00.000-08:00

what the hell ! 2 days off frm work ! gerek per sialx ! hahha. . so what did i do for this two days? hmmm. . ..lets seee. . . .here goes the story. .

TUESDAY

I accompanied my mum to hospital cos need to get my daddy out of there. haha . waited for the doctors for HOURS ! den the doctor arrived -.- . yadayadyada. . daddy was release, den we head down to novena square to eat ( cos me and mummy had not had our meal for the whole day! ). So we head to "Fork & Spoon". the food damn nice ! but the service damn farking bad ! OMG ! this lady was SOOO STUPID ! i wonder why they ever assign her to do the cashier when she herself dun even noe how to speak ENGLISH ! fark ! den yadayadayada. . . head back home . reach home, solat den i went off. again -.- to get my hair cut at "SNIP AVENUE" . cheapcheap goodgood shop =) . wah ! my hair frm selekeh become sooo the nice kepe sial ! hahah ! after that head down to whitesand to get my FIRST EVER! MANAGER SCHEDULE ! chey3. . . hahah ! coincidentally izzy just finish work. so i walked him home and took bus home. THATS ALL FOR TUESDAY ! =)

TODAY !

today was quite simple. woke up alil late. around 2pm plus. hoho! siak peh anak bujang. haha. woke up and realise no one was home -.- irritating kepe ! den took the advantage. since no one was at home, i turned on my stereo and started screaming my lungs out ! hahah ! den kid called asking me whether wanna go KARAOKE or not ! fuh ! mcm tau tau jer. . hahah. . so head down to whitesand to meet her. but before that, i met my bestfriend for a while under my block. hoho ! "when was the last time aku nmpk kau eh min ? i oso forgot . . haha " den head to pasir ris. met up with fifi and kid before heading down to bedok to catch up with diana and adylah.

jyeah ! den the session started ! wah ! gua pekik mcm tu gua peh rumah siol ! hahaha ! really had fun and i was wondering when was the last time i had so much fun like that. haha . aniwaes. thanks kak for making my off day a really wonderful day and i really REALLY appreciate it. THANK YOU !

2009-12-25T08:51:00.000-08:00

Here are some "words of wisdom" from me to whom it may concern. This person is currently stressed out regarding some of the matters that im gonna say it out. So here goes...

LIVE TODAY!

There are two eternities

that can really

break you down.

Yesterday and tomorrow.

One is gone and the

other doesn't exist yet . .

So LIVE TODAY !

MONEY!

Money can buy

EVERYTHING

except

HAPPINESS!

TRUST!

It takes years to build trust

and only few seconds

to DESTROY it !

DONT HURT ANYONE!

It only takes a few seconds

to hurt people you love,

and it takes years to heal.

VALUE !

What is the most valuable is not

what you have in my life

but who YOU have in your life!

2009-12-24T15:06:00.000-08:00

aiya. . i just miss my adk ler. . haish. . HE SEEMS SOOO NEAR BUT YET SOOO FARRR ! i miss him but im not showing. i dunno why im pretending as if i dun care. i just acting strong cos to me its not worth it to feel at lost again when i noe that there are others who cares more bout me jyeah. he changed a lot ever since he get to know this 'little girl' . i dunno why is he being sooo obsessed with her? my god. but who cares. like wat i said to him, "you are big enuff to think for urself. u dun need me to help u decide on ur life." i dun even think that he realises that im not talking to him that much. its not that i dun care but all i can say is. "klau dier penting kan 'lil girl' tu sangat sampai tk amek kesah pasal aku, den buat ape aku nk amek kesah pasal dier kan? btol tk ? " .

corret not? thats the fact bah. its okay lah. i dun wish to blame anyone on this. he is getting older. getting more mature. i supposed? hmmmm. . all i wanna say is "all the best to him on trying to achieve his goals of trying to get that 'lil girl' and all the best trying to gain back his standards at work; which all i can say is going to be hard for u." too bad im not siding u this time round adk but it seems like u asked for it . toodles.

2009-12-23T08:44:00.000-08:00

ARGH! FINALLY HOME ! fuuuuhh ! i wanna sleeeeeeeeeep ! i miss my bed , my bolster , my SPONGEBOB ! hahaha !

just came back from chalet. had lots of fun there. eventho it felt pretty tiring , but overall , was a great experience having it with them. Finally having the chalet that they always dream of for the past 3 years ! hahah !

FINALLY IT HAPPENS ! !

haha ^_^

now my whole body is aching due to the game of TWISTER and my head is spinning due to LACK OF SLEEP ! hahaha !

too tired to think . wanna rest . chiaows !

2009-12-20T02:01:00.000-08:00

today at work, we celebrate our beloved aunty LAY ENG birthday in advance. he bdae was the next day but too bad she was off. so we really surprised her. haha ! cool ! den at work like NABEI ! i get scolding for no reason. scolding that wasnt related to me at all ! ggggrrr ! thanks eh ! i was scolded cos adk azri called up saying that he was going to be late for work. ok fine. den he was like 2hrs late? WTF ! damn really get me into shit sia! he actually went out with adk tu bugis. alermak. den adk oso shud noe bah dat adk azri pucnh in at 4.30pm. but still can dilly dally . NABEI ! gggrrr ! nvm. thats the responsibility of a BIG BROTHER HUH ! ggggrrr !

nut its okay. wat enlighten my day was that i was able to eat my favourite burger ! that is PROSPERITY BURGER ! wheeee! promotions coming soon yaw ! and got twister fries ! hot hot ! wow! gerek per tadi makan! hahah! just reach home. now waanna sleep . chiaows !

P.S. I LOVE YOU BABY !

2009-12-16T02:23:00.000-08:00

Today was attached out oso. again -.-''

today was attached out at SERANGOON ! hahaha ! first impression. "Confirm got alot of mama . aiya. . shit. . " haha but in the end. there were rarely any. LOL ? so went there with Syafiq, Shahrin and Zafri. all the mepeks2 crew. hahaha. had lots of fun. Me , Zafri and Syafiq were stuck whole day at kitchen where as Shahrin were all alone by himself outside at the counter-front area. SORRY BRO ! cant be helped. During work some of the others irritate us. ggrr. they think we are like VENDING MACHINE where when u press the button only the food will come out. tell them NABEI ! really pissed me off sia! after work, wanted to went home straight, but den adk say he wanna meet me. i oso duno for wat reason he suddenly wanna meet me. i guess he must either have a problem or he misses me . lol . so head down to whitesand and met him. Sue and Fendy were there surprisingly. tot they plan to meet me oso but actually SUE WAS LATE FOR WORK AND ASKED FENDY TO FETCH HER ! NABEI ! haha so sitted at mac and makan with adk. den after a while, Fendy sent me home :) got chance to ride fendy bike! wheee ! long time since i last ride a bike :) Thanks Bro! and sorry adk cos like waste time come meet me when i dun really tok to you. sorry jyeah.

Yesterday was Susan's Bdae. So today is my Daddy's Birthday !

HAPPY 49th BIRTHDAY DADDY !

May Allah keep you healthy, cheerful and strong always to overcome all the illness you facing through. Get well soon Daddy jyeah! You are the greatest Daddy i've ever seen and i thank allah for giving you to me :) eventho u are sick, u always think of ur responsibilities towards the family. THATS WHY DADDY SUSAH NAK BAIK! ggrrr ! u dont need to worry bout us that much okay? all of us a big girl and big boys ready. we are capable of finding our own expenses. Instead of u finding money for us, we are the one who is supposed to find money to support u and mummy ler... rest more aite. and listen to us! klau kite ckp makan obat ker pegi doctor. DENGAR ! hahaha ! i love you daddy :) muacks !

2009-12-15T23:10:00.000-08:00

Today,

Work was attached to Changi Airport Terminal 2 (CA2) . FUNN LIKE HELL BODOH !! hahaha ! That was the day i really had fun work. Work there with some crazy people like "piah", linda, sarah, danial,hisham and blabla. Starting from 12pm, NON-STOP LAUGHING ACTION WITH THEM! thruoghout the whole shift till 8.30pm -.- . was never serious at work haha ! den waited for aaron to finish work around 9. den headed back home. :)

seee! laugh so much till migrane attack while otw home. gggrrr!

Oo Su San

Today is the day where a repeated event occurs yearly.

its SUSAN'S BDAE!

HAPPY 23rd BDAE YAW SUSAN !

May 'ur' god always give u patience, strength and power to overcome all the obstacles that you are going through jyeah. Stay healthy always and be more cheerful jyeah! no worries, no matter what happen, me and the rest will still and always be by ur side no matter what happen :)

cheers !

2009-12-10T10:47:00.000-08:00

What a crazy day yesterday!

I went to school with my tooth aching! :(

but its okay i force myself to school due to a certain activities thats going to be carried out during lesson. :)

The objective of the lesson is actually to capture photos!

Photos of the school architechtural design and the students activity.

snapsnap here. .

snapsnap there . .

Den things went totally wrong ! OMG !

we started to take pictures of OURSELVES !

hahah! really damn funny.

At the school track

At the school Swimming Complex

Fitness corner

GYM!

Outside W6 Building :)

We really had lots and lots of fun jyeah teammate!

Aniwae, after school rush down to Health Promotion Board (HPB) with sue due to my appointment at 3.30pm. gggrrr! dental appointment! suck ! i hate dentist ! they scare the shit out of me ! hahah ! damn !

around 3.50pm , was called into the room, scary ! with the scary instuments ! aiya. .

i can bet that during that time, my heartbeat was beating damn fast ! ggrr !

treatment took more than 2 HOURS ! was my tooth that bad?!? humph !

aniwae, after treatment was done, head back home. too tired to slack with sue. sorry yaw sis :)

2009-12-06T11:37:00.000-08:00

wah ! woke up late today for work ! damn ! started at 2 and i woke up at 1.30pm. aiyaaa. . .

rushed down to workplace and found out they change my schedule last minute to 2.30pm. damn ! why never inform me earlier sia ! ggggrr !

den hafiz was attached to my store. after work, slacked together with him and my lil bro...went same thing, went to Tamp Int. to meet the 2 crazy people. hahah ! laughing out loud to all hafiz Jokes. aiyaa...he really have the characteristics to become a clown/joker. -.- hahahah !

aniwae.. just reached home :) wanna sleep. .too tired..

2009-12-06T07:32:00.000-08:00

great time today! my 'abg' came down my work place and see me ! woots ! long time never see him yaw! its kelvin btw.

work and work and work....

finish work, he was waiting for me ! awww ! so sweet of my elder godbrother. we sit, chat, laugh and go crazy all the way ! hahah ! half-way, we went down to Tamp Int. to meet up with fifi and sue. chit chat and laugh with them till 6 plus in the morning! OMG ! hahah ! rushed home and went to bed.

i really miss those times when we used to slack together and have fun :)

** im missing someone dearly. haish. and i miss my 'abg' too! :)

2009-12-03T22:46:00.000-08:00

Yesterday, i didnt get a chance to blog. Too tired. Aniwaes, yesterday was really a great day for me. It makes me forget bout my stress. haha

Yesterday went to school in the morning with my bro, Fad. half-way thru, at 12 noon, cabot class with fad! hahah ! to draggy yesterday's lesson. so jyeah. Sit at our school subway and had our BRUNCH! after that went home straight.

Reach home, Candy called to accompany her to eat Sushi. But i dunwant to go. Lame lor eat sushi. nothing special. Den last minute went to karaoke with all my God-sis, Kak Rehana, Kid and Adylah. Had so much fun singing after soooo looong never go. hahah!

After singing, went to our usual hotspots to eat (Simpang Bedok). Den another god-sis of mine came down ; Kak Hanee. Eat eat eat ! soooo fulll!! finish eating, slack there for a moment, 2hr plus, awhile huh!?! hahah! tok crap among each other. hahaha ! great day yesterday. JYEAH !

***Im so confused. dunno who to pick. Anywho can help me with my situation? Can anywho ever understand my situation? even my lil-bro is unable to understand me... haish... thats lyf ethan! get over it and BOOMZ !

2009-12-02T23:17:00.000-08:00

today, woke up late for school. But who cares ! i have always been late ! hahah !

school was fun. had lots of crazy thing going on in class. half-way thru, i have to rush down to the IT HELPDESK cos my lappy something wrong. "Run Advertised Programme" was down. then i was unable to do my school work. pfft ! -.-''

After school, accompanied Izwan to gym. By right i was supposed to do it together with him. but in the end, i felt tired and sit outside to wait for him to finish his sessions.

While waiting, saw Faris (primary school mate) passing by. Talk lots of stuff with him and he is really a changed man. ahaha!

Den when everything was over, met kid at Tamp Mall. Had dinner with Izwan, kid and kid's ehem. . hahaha ! well . . lots of fun going on. jyeah! looking forward to next week's lesson! woohooo! surprise !

2009-11-30T23:03:00.001-08:00

fucker !